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This life has gone from being somewhat hectic to a freak-show of work. I never anticipated trying to study something and have a full-time work responsibility to be this hard. Add to that a pinch of freelance work and a reputation to keep and you pretty much have a recipe for disaster, or a lot less sleep than the human body needs. Speaking of the human body, I’ve now gotten myself a gym membership at the college gym. When I say college most people think it’s that other school by the sea. NO. I went to the better one in the better part of Colombo. Anyway the gym is better. Now add to my list of things the physical fatigue of working out.
This all seems a little crazy and has left me with no time to read. Which I must tell you sucks balls cause I have a bunch of good books that are waiting for me. The new acquisitions in the form of a bicycle and camera led me on an adventure that included some photography along the west coast. However, due to this stretch of the coast being labelled a HSZ, the photo ops were pretty much screwed. Adventure on the other hand was pretty good and I did get back in one piece. Hence this post.
All in all I’m beginning to wonder if I’ve bitten off more than I can chew. I can chew a lot. But this is becoming a lot tiring. Transport costs a lot of my time which I don’t have. Visiting my clients and getting things done is also a little screwed up. I don’t have a ride, still, and this makes things worse. Threewheeler fares are through the roof and I consider it a waste of money. So bus it is. But bus is tiring to the max and the weather these days is not helpful. The only thing that is keeping me going at this point in time is the fact that by this time next year I would probably have an entirely different life. A better one. With more money in the bank and fewer hassles. But the hassles will never be fewer, probably a lot less annoying. Then again it helps to be hopeful. We shall find out in a year or so won’t we?
You need not feel pity. I just needed to let it all out. And now I feel better.
Some thoughts have been running through this muddled, work filled mind of mine. There’ve been plenty decisions to make and quite frankly I think I’ve made the right ones.
I still haven’t properly met her after the hedkandy party Last December. Can you believe? Hikkaduwa was crazy for me at least and I was rather pissed off about being snobbed the weekend before. Anyway, the thing thats bothering me seems to be the fact that she’s leaving. Well its not bothering me. I’m quite happy that she’s finally got what she’s been wanting forever. Or has she? Well based on what I was told last year that’s what she wanted. Anyway, back to the point – I think I wanna see her before she leaves. Coffee? Drinks? Dinner? whatever, just sit down, have a few laughs, clear the air. Friends. But then there’s part of me that says she ain’t gonna even make a text message of a goodbye. If there’s anyone who could be more selfish than me sibling it’s her. And bloody hell it would be quite natural for me to find out from someone else that she’s gone.
Why am I even still on about her? I don’t know myself. I’ll let you know when I do get to know. In the meantime I need to reduce the alcohol intake on weekends and stop making a hash of my nights out. It’s become an embarrassing affair, this whole going out and getting plastered thing. I best stop it for a while, at least till December. I need to save up the cash for the Blackberry Bold.
Bloody disappointment in terms of the camera, which I believe I won’t be getting this week. CRAP!!!! What to do. On the other hand I am loving the new Bicycle. The Shimano geers and the front shocks rock….
A four day holiday thanks to Vesak and most self respecting individuals are off to some part of the country. Some I know are off to Trinco and some others to Kalpitiya. Both fucking gorgeous beaches, while I am stuck, stuck with books, books at home. This makes me wanna puke. But I guess its the price you pay when you can make it to any part of the country at any time you want, while others are stuck at the office with all those undesirable people. Oh! Looks like I’d be looking forward to long weekends too, come June cause I’d be getting myself a real job. So another interesting turn of events for the ME.
A topic of conversation that’s cropped up a few times has been “how come you can put all that personal shit online? Its not like people don’t know who Scourge is.” Well some people might know, at least the blogger folk. No matter. The pseudonym was to steer clear of the nosy office women. I really don’t give a toss who reads this. I write cause I like and it lets me speak to several people at the same time. Then some leave comments, which is neat. Right, but how can I put this shit on the net for people to see? Well like I said, I’ve got nothing to hide. As long as I safeguard the identities of the other people involved then it should be fine. I think. But then again, there are some who think that “I went to dinner the other night with X” is fucking slander. Anyway, fact is that I am straight and there’s no like second fucking life that I live in private and I’m secure enough to say, darn that incident made me cry or I got plastered or I got arrested. Its just another thing for me to talk about while having a drink on the beach. After all life is about the stories isn’t it? Pow for all you people who have to live two lives. How will you ever share the awesome stories / adventures that went on in your secret life? Shame!
Things have become rather monotonous and boring. Must be going for an average good time to 3 days of absolute madness to week of fucking assignments and presentations.
Due to some procrastinating, I found out that the Project Management report was due last Tuesday. Since I had to spend some time recovering from the 3 day madness on Sunday I started work on the 6800 word report only on Sunday night. A particular group member was all too eager to say I have done this bit and I have done that bit and why hell have you not done your stuff, Typical!! So I did some delegating and was left with a few things to do. We went through the stuff that Miss Loud-mouth-all-fart-no-shit had done and it was clear that the entire report needed to be redone. Needless to say I was pissed, and so were the other 3 in the group. Luckily for Miss Loud-mouth-all-fart-no-shit, she had a lunch date that lasted till 6pm and returned only after we’d finished 87.5% of the work. I tried to talk to her and ask her why the hell she failed to mention that she’d be doing a half-ass job of the work. She started her rambling-accusing-you-suck-I-rule act and I lost it more. Told her off and she went off in a huff and never came back. Good riddance I say! At least the guys who ride the C wave don’t behave like they are better than the rest of the crew. They just sit and chill and wait for the shit to get done. I think the chillers are better than the fakers… seriously.
So what’s the fancy pic got to do with the bitching? Nothing. I just love this photo, taken over the mountains of Kalupahana. What a way to start the morning. Amazing! I need a bleeding holiday. I need some beach and trance or some chill weather, mountains and Nitin Sawhney. Yeah and some booze and accessories to go with that. I’d do a lot to get smashed under a starry sky and wake up to a salmon pink sky like that right now. But hey, no go, life has become routine and I need to wait for pay and a few friends and I guess some shit will start rocking. Till then…
I’ve got so much shit to do it ain’t funny. No help from the newly appointed project manager of our Project Management group. Fuck that shit, told her that she could leave the group if she can’t work with the rest of us.
Had a good game, although I did get a little pissed off about the guys playing like a bunch of retards the first two games. After voicing my disappointment they did start using their heads a bit. Fight! awesome, felt like I was in school again. It wasn’t a proper fist fight though, just lots of shouting and stuff about people’s mom’s taking it up the ass etc. All good fun though. Went to Station Family Restaurant and had a good laugh over a bottle. This shit is fun. A lot of fun.
Bomb went off today near IFS. Freak, this shit is happening too close to me for comfort. Although I must reiterate that I will not change my life just because bombs are going off, literalily around me. The Fuck? It’s annoying and a bloody inconvenience. I’m in the process of putting together some political shit for the other blog at the moment. Probably post it one of these days. But it is a little annoying. If I remember right I believe the war was supposed to be done with by March 08… hmm?
Weekend quite good. Didn’t involve much booze but certainly a lot of physical activity. All good, slept most of Sunday, read the papers, which seem to be declining in terms of content etc., watched some TV, caught up on some work, went to church and went to sleep. Good Stuff… 
It’s that time of the semester and assignment deadlines are staring me in the face. On top of that all these sports things are happening and I’m dead tired at the end of the day. Maybe so but hanging with the younger crowd and running around a ground trying to catch that oval shaped balls is quite fun.
Speaking of assignments, it’s the same old story of riding the C-wave. It’s quite annoying. People disappearing, not showing up for class, attitudes changing, it’s amazing the effect assignments can have on people. Best part is that all this happens only when it’s a group assignment. Individual assignments get done without a problem. Go figure! It’s buggers like this who make it to parliament and then run this country to the ground.
Marshmallow has been hovering around in my mind quite a bit lately; relatively. Not in a bad way. Not in a OMG! I miss her so much way. Just in a way. It might be the fact that she’s come up in conversation a few times, while chatting to a mutual friend. Gah! I dunno man, I can’t be mad at this girl. I’ve concluded that my feelings are more along the lines of disappointment rather than resentment or animosity. Oh! Well, I guess time will tell and I’ll probably end up being good friends with her. History repeats itself; in my life too.
Game day for touch rugby tomorrow and I figure I’d be doing a lot of running. Good fitness and warm up for the 3 days that are coming up next week. I’ll be missing the first session of the first day due to a scheduled presentation. Damn it! I was looking forward to 3 days of absolute mayhem, but I suppose that’ll have to wait for another year. 2 1/2 is good enough I suppose. I shall hit the sack now, since I have to play tomorrow and all. Sports makes me feel good. Also seems to be making my abs reappear from wherever they went off to hide.
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